Slacking for sure!

Ok, so I've been really bad with my running & I have absolutely no reason as to why, just flat out lazy!  I took last week off but I made sure I still ate really good & I actually did good, but it's now Wednesday in week 2 & I still haven't gotten on the treadmill & I'm kinda dreading it b/c I know it's going to be rough after a week in a half of not doing anything.  I wanna run today but I'm so exhausted (I know that isn't an excuse) I went to bed around 10pm last night but couldn't fall asleep until about 2am then I got a wake up call from my youngest at 5:45am.  

So basically above I've just been making tons of excuses for myself & I have no one to blame except me!!!  I had my husband call Fitness 19 to see how much a membership is cuz I'm really wanting to get to a gym so I can start using weights again & also the elliptical, but I will still run on my treadmill at home.  Anyways, it's $50 to join & $10 a month plus of course I need child care & it's $6 per child per month so total with membership & child care would be about $28 a month, which honestly is a really awesome price, so I'm going to sweet talk my hubby into letting me get it. 

Well I better go make my breakfast smoothy, which by the way I've started adding ground Flax Seed to them everyday cuz I've read about the great benefits from it such as inflammation.  It's suppose to help limit inflammation & we all know almost everyone can use that.  Also I've read the great benefits for woman.  So, I figured I couldn't hurt myself by using it so I'm giving it a try.  This is my second week on it.  

I will update later.... Until next time.............

Running the fat off!!

So as I've said before I started training myself for a half marathon & no still haven't decided if I'm going to actually run one come Fall, but we'll see.   I am on day six of my training & I ran for 30 mins at 5.0 mph & it felt GREAT.  I didn't stop once, but the 5.0 makes me feel like I'm running so slow.  Tomorrow I run for 30 again & I believe on Friday I run/walk for 40 mins.  I'm really truly hoping that this jump starts my weight loss journey again.  So far I haven't lost anything yet, but I'm feeling pretty good.  

I'm still in PT for my knees & I have three more visits left.  My left knee was starting to feel better (still having occasional pain) & my right knee has been truly giving me allot of problems like just walking down the stairs or sitting on the toilet or anything were I have to bend it.  Well since I stopped doing lunges & squats (which still disappoints me) my left knee has improved, but yesterday at therapy they introduced wall squats with a ball between my knees & my knees were hurting bad today.  I go again tomorrow & I'll see how I feel & mention it to them.  I really want my knees to heal up so I can start doing more exercises for my legs.  Also my back still bothers me allot from my last injury & I need that to heal up to 100% too, or as close as someone with a back like mine can get.  

I'm still desperately job searching & it's getting very frustrating.  I cannot believe that there is not one job out there that I qualify for where the people actually wanna interview me or hire me.  Come on I'm a great worker & a very fast learner.  Those are a few of my qualities.  Please pray that something comes very soon because alittle extra money will be very nice & then we can finally move to a bigger house that we need.  

Well I really hope that I stick with my running & that these last 50lbs fall off as quick as the first 70lbs did.  Oh, please, please!!!!!

Until next time............

Pissed!!

Ok, this is going to be a fast update, I'll write more later. How in the Hell did I go from 249.3 on Friday to 256.6 today!?!?!? I mean come on... This is my problem since January I just cannot stay under 250. I'm really starting to loose hope & lose my determination on this dang weight loss goal. I'm really hoping that it's just allot of water weight, like it sometimes is & usually after I work out I sweat most of the water out my weight goes down again. What & How can I stop this from happening weekend after weekend. I know I don't drink at much water as I normally do during the week especially when we are up at the trailer, but I've been trying hard to make sure I drink more up there. Maybe that is it & maybe I need to start brining better foods for me up there.

UGH, I'm just so mad right now I wanna cry. I really don't need this right now, I need some success again!!!!!!!