Done!!

I am beyond pissed..... I did five days of running & four days of the Ripped in 30 (cuz I started Tuesday ) and I GAINED three fricken pounds!! OMG, I really don't know what to do & I'm about to throw in the towel & just except the fact that I'm doomed to be fat the rest of my life. I haven't lost anything since 1/29/13! WTH?!?! I am going to do my five days of Both workouts this week & again hope for the best & hoping that maybe it'll change once my monthly friend comes (any day now), cuz I usually put on a few right before then. If not I will scream, not like I don't scream enough with three little ones.

Anyways, I've been so depressed, pissed at the world & lost for words with my life right now.. I need CHaNGE & quickly. My kids have been so frustrating & nerve wrecking lately, maybe b/c we're all stir crazy being locked up inside & nothing to do. I really, really need a job. I cannot get past the damn interview part... Maybe I just am an idiot & I know I probably sound stupid in interviews but no one wants to hire me! WTH am I doing wrong, I mean seriously???? I'm a very hard worker & if people would get past the interview part & just let me show them then they wouldn't be disappointed. I am a fast learner & a great employee but no one wants me. I'm being to think I may need to apply at McDonalds or Walmart just so I can get out, but I probably wouldn't get those jobs either!!!

Oh we'll, enough complaining, but I needed to get that out cuz I have no one to talk to these days & keeping everything bottled up is getting to me!

Until next time.......

No pain, no gain!

Ok so I took 8 days off of working out & tried hard to still eat good. The reason I did this is because since 1/29/13 I have been stuck at the same weight. Yes it is good that I didn't gain, but I didn't loose either. I know my back injury put a big dent in my work out plans but I can't blame it on that & my back is doing much better that I don't have to go the PT (physical therapy) anymore. So I have to get myself motivated again & get moving to lose these last 50 lbs.

So I started running & walking again on Monday & I upped my running speed from 5.2 to 5.4 & it was rough but I got thru it. I also did my strength video by Denise Austin (my all time favorite cuz it works). Yesterday I did the treadmill but sadly I had to cut my run short b/c my running shoes (Asics ) have been a little tight since my pregnancy but I've sucked it up & ran through it, we'll yesterday I just couldn't take it (I had to curl my toes while running) so I went out yesterday & bought a new pair of running shoes & I cannot wait to run today & test them out. I also started the 30 day shred with Jullian Michaels yesterday & I'm going to hopefully stick to it & do it 5-6 days a week & hopefully see better results. Yesterday she kicked my butt cuz I'm so out of shape & it's been like five or so years since I've done such intense work outs & I'm hurting today but its that "good" hurt were you know it's working.

I'm also going to take some "disturbing" embarrassing photos of me today & then at day 30 to see the results. In the end I will post the before & after pics on here no matter how gross I look, hey I need inspiration, right?

Well it's time to go throw my workout cloths on & get to the 30 day shred & will do my treadmill & Denise Austin video later when the kids are sleeping.... Wish me luck.

Until next time...............

Ok, so I haven't stuck to my promise of keeping this updated. It's the time of year that I'm really busy. My back is doing much better & I have been able to start running again but I haven't done my five times a week cuz I'm slacking. I haven't ran since Thursday & I feel absolutely disgusting. I really need to get back on track & I hate that I let an injury take the best of me cuz I was doing so well. I haven't lost a pound in about a month & a half but thankfully I haven't gained either. I need to sit down & do a change to my diet again to get the weight loss moving again b/c I only have 50 lbs to go. The first 60 flew off cuz I was losing 2lbs a week but now I'm stuck, ugh. I'm going to do some researching & try new healthier foods & see if that helps me. Ive been so exhausted lately & also my nausea is back (vertigo) and that makes me not want to do a thing. So starting tomorrow I'm going to start running again & depending on what new healthier foods I choose I may start tomorrow or when I can get to a grocery store to stock up.

I will update with my changes ounce I figure it out. Thanks for listening.

Until next time cuz this momma is going to bed!

Slacker

Sorry I haven't been on to update in a long time but nothing really has changed even my weight. Two weeks this Tuesday I was holding my 17 month old & dancing with him & I injuried my back & could barely move. Quick story on my back I've had two surgeries on my lower back to fix herniated discs. Anyways, I went to the doctor & he put me on pain pills & muscle relaxers & a steroid (prednisone). The steroids were awful they made me bloated & constipated. So I was able to get around again but still had pain then on Sunday I hurt it again & was down for the count this time. I started physical therapy on Thursday which helped but I'm still having pain & have to watch my moves or I get a shooting pain in my back. My nights are sleepless & I wake up barely able to move b/c of the pain. During the day it's getting somewhat better. So to say the least I am depressed that I haven't been able to workout at all. I'm worried now that when I finally do get to its going to be hard to get myself back into the swing of things. Go figure just when things were getting good this happens, it never fails.

I've been trying to at least still watch what I eat so the weight doesn't come back on while I'm healing. I'm thinking on Monday I might get on the treadmill & do the JM walking workouts & start there & see how that goes & then slowly I can maybe get back to running sooner then later. I figured if I can at least do that it's better then nothing, right?

Anywho, I will try to keep my blog updated. I've just been on meds & in so much pain that I didn't feel like typing anything.

Until next time...............

This needs to stop!

Why do I always do this to myself! I have gained 3lbs over the weekend & I'm sure it's from the beer & junk I ate over the weekend cuz we had the twins birthday party & then yesterday we ate Denny's for breakfast & Mr. hero for lunch. I'm hoping its mostly water weight that I will sweat out after my workout today. I keep saying this all the time but I need to start following it but I really need to start doing better on the weekends if I want to loose these last 50 lbs before the end of the year. I need to start treating them like I do the week days & eating better & getting my workouts in if need be.

Anyways, I ordered four videos off of Amazon they are workout for arms, legs & abs, I will post more about them later, but I am planning on adding those to my workouts b/c it's time to start trying to firm after all this weight loss.

Well this was a short post but I will post more later (I promise). I will let you know how the videos went & post more about them.

Until next time.............

Crazy day!

Ok I really don't understand what my problem was today (if I wasn't fixed I'd say I was pregnant, lol). I was in a foul mood & didn't want to be bothered or touched by anyone yes even my kids. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed I guess. I can say I felt mad at the world b/c my house is a mess & there is nothing I can do about it & I get absolutely NO help with everything even the kids. Example since my knee has been hurting its really hard to give the trio a bath b/c of the bending of it & you'd think my husband would offer to help me out, but hell no they would never get cleaned if that was the deal. I cried a lot today b/c I've come to realize that I haven't spent anything on just me in the last few years & now that I'm losing all his weight I have absolutely no nice clothing to wear out if I wanted to go. I use to be embarrassed about going out b/c of my extreme weight but now I am b/c of my wardrobe. Yes, I want to go but new clothes but since I'm still losing weight & still have 50 lbs to go I don't want to waste money on clothes until I'm at my ideal weight. Then lets add that my asinine dog tore a hole in our couch that isn't even four months old whole I was running. I'm so sick of not being able to have anything nice. Well I'm going to stop bitching, but just had to say I was feeling a bit down on myself today.

Anyways the twins 3rd birthday was yesterday & so I had a piece of cake & ice cream but I did get my run in. Then today I wanted to skip but thankfully I did it & feel better that I did, plus I cleaned the fridge out cuz we're having a party for the twins on Saturday so I have tons of cleaning to do before then. I made cupcakes for their school tomorrow & of course I enjoyed one tonight after dinner.

Anyways gotta cut his short cuz criminal minds will be on in 8 mins. Sorry this post seemed all over the place but that's how I'm feeling today.

Until next time........

Alright I have to admit that since I got my IPad I have really bad about keeping up with my blog & in some sort of way I do feel bad.  I have still been running faithfully & I'm feeling pretty good.  My runs this past week have been really hard & I've struggled probably b/c I'm still fighting this chest cold.  My knee is still hurting but it has not bothered me while running/walking just when I bend it. 

So for some reason I have been feeling some sort of bloated the past few days & I already drink lots of water, but I've been trying to drink alittle more to try to get rid of it.  I was thinking maybe it was b/c of my monthly visitor but I'm towards the end so normally any bloat is gone by then.  We'll see how I am in a day or two & maybe I need to readjust my diet.  My clothes have been fitting pretty good, but I'm like in an in between size most of the clothes are falling off of me but the other half of my clothes (my pre-twin pregnancy) are a tad bit small but some fit.  I really have to start strength training now to try to tone up all this "loose" skin/flab that is now forming from all the weight I lost.  If I get this job next week then I'm going to see about getting a gym membership somewhere (I don't know how I'll fit it in w/ my trio & working full-time, but I will).  I need to get some video's b/c this extra skin is really causing me problems & self esteem issues.

Tomorrow is the twins 3rd birthday & I have lots to do tonight & then Saturday is there party so I have lots to prepare this week.  I will try hard to update more this week.  I didn't work out today b/c I've just been really tired & plus my son said he wanted me to lay in bed w/ him at nap time so I ended up falling to sleep & yes I do feel guilty about it.  But I will pick it up a step the rest of the week b/c as of right now I don't have any excuses.

Well my trio is screaming & calling me so I have to run.  Until next time......................