Last week of my 30's

Yep, I have finally reached a point in my life that no one really cares to hit, but if you are one of the ones that couldn't wait for it then you are probably a rare bread, LOL.  This Sunday, January 25 I will turn 40.  Holy Moly, how did this happen?  Where did my youth go?  I will honestly admit I wish I was in better shape for my 40th, but unless I can drop 100 lbs in a week then it is not going to happen. 

I need to say (per my last sentience above) I have taken steps to trying to help make my goals to this weight loss easier.  I did in fact signed up for #weightwatchers last Thursday thru my company.  Last Monday & Tuesday I did 30 minutes on the treadmill which 14 of them I ran.  I then fell off the wagon and didn't get anymore running in.  I will however be running tonight after the kids go to bed, or I might even do it before then, we'll have to see what the night brings me cuz I have lots of chores that need to get done tonight (before the kids school tomorrow).  I will do this though!

I truly wish there was some type of magical pill that you can take (that wasn't bad for you) that can give you some energy.  I'm just so exhausted all the time.  For instance the other day I slept for 9 hours and that day I felt absolutely no different as if I only slept 6 hours.  I really hate this dragging ass feeling.  I want to have a day that I can just go, go, go and not feel tired or exhausted at all.  A day where I have the energy to get my butt in gear and don't have to force myself or talk myself into the reason why I need to workout, because I will have allot of energy I need to burn so I'll want to do it.  Energy, to do stuff with my kids & get things accomplished that I need to do.  Maybe, this is cuz I'm over weight, maybe I'm not getting a restful nights sleep.  I do have a Fit bit Flex and I love that it tracks my sleep cycle, because this is a way I found out that I wake up allot throughout the night.  So it may say that I went to bed at 9pm and slept till 6am (9 hours total), but in the end after measuring all my restless & wake full times I only averaged 6 maybe 7 hours. 

I'm trying to keep a positive mind and I will do this!  We looked at this awesome house on Saturday and OMG, I loved it and the price is just right.  So we are going to try to submit an offer tomorrow (cuz banks are closed today it's MLK day) I'm so anxious cuz I'm so afraid that someone will be us to this house.  I have to keep in my mind that the statements "If its meant to be then it'll be, but if not then it wasn't meant to be." I believe now with my father in heaven he can see what would work for us and what wouldn't and help guide us on the decisions.  God will be the one that if it's to be he will make it be.  I don't want to make a choice were we're going to truly regret down the road, but sadly we cannot make that decision.  You just don''t know until that time comes, right now we can only look at what it presented in front of us.  I have faith for us to be guided correctly. 

Oh, and I also have faith that I will stick to this and will win this weight loss battle.  With lots of motivation (where I seem to be lacking, currently), self discipline, encouragement & honesty this will be just about as easy as it was when I lost all the weight in my late 20's. 

I can do this, we can do this, you can do it & We'll all succeed! 

Tis the Season

Well lets just say that since the beginning of September I have been sick with a cold.  It will just slowly start getting better and then BAM another one sneaks up.  My kids have also been sick since the second week of school well with coughs and colds.  Joey just got off of antibiotics for a lung infection and finally after a couple months I don't hear him coughing anymore.  He is still using his inhaler not as much.  Well now Jake & Addisyn have horrible coughs that are keeping them up at night.  Anyways, I hate this time of the year when everyone gets sick.  Alright enough complaining about that. 

I still haven't figured anything out about my weight loss and honestly I don't know what I'm waiting for, maybe a Magic Pill or something that works to be presented to me.  Who knows, but what I do know is that I have been extremely lazy in the getting my butt off the couch and working out.  I have briskly walked for an hour on the treadmill a couple (and I mean a couple) nights last week & the week before.  I wanna get the motivation to get myself to the gym.  I know the #1 person that can do this is myself, but the help of someone Else usually is good too.  I wish I had a workout partner someone I am meeting at the gym every night, because then I know I will get my lazy butt out the door all the time, because I wouldn't be able to let that person down.  It's just the point of finding someone that is motivated themselves and is hard working so they too don't slack.  That is how many years ago I lost a lot of weight.  I was dating a guy that went to the gym & ran every day so in order to be with him that is what I did and "Poof" I became a gym rat and looked awesome... Even after we broke up I already created a good habit and continued going.  Then I dated another guy that worked out everyday too and so it kept me going.  I also played Co-ed Softball every night.  I was in GREAT shape and I felt great.  My whole point is I need to find someone that can motivate me and understands my schedule with my kids & husband and that sometimes it just won't work, but will encourage me to still eat good and get on the treadmill at home or whatever.  Someone that I can motivate too and coach along.  That is what I need and am looking for.  Oh and free I don't want to pay someone to do this so even if it is a friend that wants to get in shape too then GREAT! 

In another topic. .. I need to keep myself off of facebook for a while because of personal reason.  I need to get away from the negativity and focus on myself because that is bringing me into the wrong direction, a direction I don't wanna go.  If people wanna be nosey then they can pick up the phone and call me from now on.  I'm just sick of some things with FB and peoples posts.  I am going to concentrate on me (so YES I'm going to be selfish) and also on my kids and marriage. 

Until next time.........................  Peace.

Day 1 of round 2 of the 21 Day fix

Today is the day, the day to flush out all those poisons I put into my body all weekend (beer, processed foods).  It is 3:15pm and I have done awesome so far.  I just am not feeling to good today.  I think it's a combination of my monthly friend visiting any day (TMI, I know but it comes with the territory) and all the beer and nasty foods I ate since Wednesday night.  Well this time I am ready and I will take the bull by the horns and kick some ass these next 3 weeks.  I WILL not cheat & I will succeed.  This is only 3 weeks and anyone can do this in 3 weeks.

I am so excited to get home & eat a healthy meal then get my workout in.  My new tennis shoes came in the mail and I cannot wait to wear them.  I order Asics running, the first time my brother convinced me to get them I loved them after that.  They feel so weightless which is great if you are a runner.  They can run a bit on the expensive side but I personally think they are worth the investment. 

OH, on another note, I had a very disturbing dream last night that involved my kids but mostly my daughter and it wasn't good.  I keep thinking back to it & it really scares me.  I need to get it out of my mind.  I literally checked on her this morning before I left to make sure all was great.  I want to run home after work and hug her and cuddle.  I've never had anything this bad about my kids and I don't want to ever again.  Sorry, I had to get this out because it is brothering me and I just don't feel like posting it on FB where some people I know can be idiots about it (they probably know who they are)

Ok, back the Fix.  My current weight this morning was 253 ( I will do measurements tonight before I work out).  Yes, after this weekend I have put weight on, but I know most of it is water (PMS & bloating) so that'll go away once it shows up (Aunt flow). 

I really wish I had more of an ability to convince people to try out Beachbody (it's 100% money back guarantee if you don't like it).  I cannot get anyone to commit and it is a bit of a downer.  I want people to get healthy, I want to help people feel better.  I just suck at convincing someone (especially when it's a bit costly, but well worth it). 

However, gotta get back to work.  Until next time.........................

Challange done = big FAIL

I know I haven't updated, but things have been crazy busy..  I finished my round one of the 21 Day Fix on Sunday and I did not do good, I failed the last week.  I have absolutely no one to blame except for myself and I'm not pointing my fingers at anyone, because if I do point I always have 4 pointing right back at me.  Anyways, my total weight lost was 7.4 lbs and no I have not measured myself.  I am so ashamed with my weight results that I just haven't brought myself to do it.  I look at it as you learn from your mistakes and then move on and make them better.

So with all that being said I am starting round two on Monday, July 7th.  I am preparing myself much better this time.  I have researched meal/snack ideas for the Fix on Pinterest and created a board just for that and have started preparing my 3 week meal plans.  Every Sunday I'm going to prepare my food for the week and have it all divided and ready to go, so on the days I'm running around after work taking the trio to their sporting events, I have no excuse to eat what I'm suppose to, because it'll be ready to go.  I am truly ready this round to achieve what I wanted to achieve the first round.  I can and I will do this. 

Also, I finally broke down and scheduled an appointment with another orthopedic surgeon for my knees, so I'm hoping I can finally get answers and relief from the pain.  I am also hoping that he doesn't stop me from being able to do my workouts and playing softball.  I will be devastated, but if it's what I need to do to get better then I will, because I cannot take this 24/7 pain anymore, this is something that has been going on for over a year and just has gotten worse. 

We have allot going on this week.  The twins have T-ball tonight & Thursday night and then Karate on Wednesday.  Then after T-ball Thursday we are heading up to the Lake for the weekend of fun and hopefully nice weather.  I'm excited cuz Friday is my favorite holiday (July 4th).  I think I enjoy it because it's in the Summer time, but I also like everything that comes along with it... fireworks, cookouts, boat rides, pools and just all out fun with others.  The kids are really excited too.  Addisyn taught herself to swim (with life vest) this past weekend and now she cannot wait to get back into the pool again.

I wish everyone or anyone who follows me and reads this a very Happy Fourth of July and to stay safe, but have a blast. 

I am going to try to attached my 3 week menu plan just so you get an idea of what I'm doing this round.  I'm not sure if it'll work.   Ok, I cannot figure out how to attach an Excel file. 

Until next time...................