Day from HELL

Ok, Sunday's are my days to sleep in (if that's what you wanna call it) we'll between my wonderful husband not paying attention to the kids but just laying on the couch almost 24/7 unless he's in bed well the kids come upstairs into my room almost every 20 mins.  So when I eventually do fall asleep I'm woken up maybe 5 mins later, so my sleep ins really don't happen.  Then I come downstairs to an almost destroyed house & the kitchen a pig stye b/c I swear on my grandmothers grave that DH doesn't know where the garbage is or the dishwasher.  Ok, now lets talk about this morning specifically..... Besides everything mentioned above this morning add to that my 2.5 years old son decided to flood half of the basement this morning, so between cleaning that & bringing all their toys back upstairs mostly by myself then having to clean the kitchen & get dinner ready & do all the laundry & deal with the kids (and they are not being angels today).  UGH, I'm about to have a nervous breakdown.  I cannot take anymore.  Seriously what am I doing wrong, am I not raising my kids right, why are they just sooo bad & don't listen or appreciate anything.  WHAT am I missing here?!?!?!?! I feel so horrible that my kids are so bad & I don't know what the hell to do about it.  I basically have no help from DH either & it's not easy, not easy at all.  This is nothing like I dreamt about growing up.  I haven't done anything w/ my kids & DH that I really want to.  I just want to be a family & work together as a family.  Maybe this is karma from something, just something but who knows.  I don't know how much more I can do this.  It's been so long that I've actually got to do something on my own.  I need a day alone a "Me" day.  Yeah, like that'll ever happen.  I NEED A JOB.

Ok, I really needed to get that out & I know it has nothing to do with my weight loss, except maybe all the stress isn't helping.  I've been so stressed that I've actually been to sick to my stomach to eat anything today.  I have used my two skip days this weekend.  Here is my meals for Saturday & today.  I didn't eat anything Saturday morning b/c I wasn't feeling good. 

Saturday

Breakfast:
coffee w/ cream & sugar

Lunch:
corn beef sandwich (oh, it was soooo good)

Dinner:
meatball sandwich

Snack:
buckeyes ice cream

Sunday (today)

Breakfast:
coffee w/ cream & sugar

Lunch:
PB&J protein bar

Dinner:
meat loaf & potatoes & carrots.

Well until next time.......