Wednesday done!!

Ugh, it was one crazy stressful day.  My kids were just pushing my buttons really bad.  I am going to start trying to stop & take deep breathes before I react from now on starting tomorrow.  Maybe if I calm down a bit they will become more calm themselves.  Plus I found out a lie that I was told by someone very near & dear to me & it hurts, really hurts so I've been depressed today.   UGH, just heartbroken.  This person already lost some trust from me over time, but now I don't know if I trust anything. 

Also I really, really need to find a job.  I need one for my sanity & money.  We are getting by on the skin of our teeth right now & I'm just hoping & praying that nothing major comes up.  I also wanna give the trio a great Christmas & I'm afraid it just isn't going to happen unless I get a job very soon.  I'm getting stressed out over money.  I miss having my money & I miss having a cushion to fall on if needed.  We are trying to sell our boat & if that goes then we would be set & no longer in trouble & can buy our dream house w/ a down payment & money left over (the boat is paid off so anything we make on it is ours). 

Anyways, to move on to the reason for this blog I just had to get that out somewhere, b/c it seems like I really don't have anyone close to me to talk to anymore or anyone to tell my worries/troubles too & I hate keeping them bottled up.  So I got my 3 miles in today & the run was alittle difficult & I was very close to giving up a couple times, but I kept pushing myself forward & I'm so glad I did.  I'm thinking that maybe it was hard b/c of the cookies I ate yesterday.  I also couldn't figure out why all of sudden my cravings have gone up & I realize that my monthly friend is due w/i the next 5 days so basically any day.  So that could be adding the the fatigue on the treadmill plus the stress. 

So here is my meals for today:

Breakfast:
the usual (see previous posts)

Lunch:
Steamed veggie melody

Dinner:
Spaghetti w/ garlic bread.

Snack:
4 peanut butter cookies

Oh, I also went the the good old fashion Library tonight & got two workout videos that I wanna try & see if I can add them to my workouts.  I need to start working my abs.  They really didn't have much of a choice (I'll have to check another Library another time). 

I picked up:

Express workout Belly, Butt, and Thighs w/ Chris Freytag
Chris Freytag

Best Bun & Leg Shapers w/ Denise Austin

Until next time...........