Wow, I have been meaning to sign in and update my blog for sometime now but with the holidays and that it went by to fast and now I realize that my last update was about a month and a half ago. I failed, yet again and I apologize for it.
On the weightloss side of things it just is not happening, in fact I've gained weight (AGAIN) in the last month and a half. I know what I weighed 2 weeks ago but with Christmas passing and that I know it's gotta be worse. I will not step on a scale again until Friday, January 1, 2016 and I will then record how much I have gained :-( I have vowed to myself and for my kids sake that on that day I am kicking my workouts and diets up a few gears. I'm sick of looking at myself and I'm sick of feeling this way. I am pushing up on the weight when I was 9 months pregnant with my last 4 years ago and that is just flat out disgusting. I'm 40 years old and with a few months of dieting and that and not losing much I have realized that with age this weightloss is definitely much harder then it was years ago when I was in my mid 20's, but I also had the help of an ex-boyfriend then and he encouraged my to my weightloss of 65 lbs and made me become the gym rat I was and I never felt better. I want that again, I want that feeling of health, happiness and energy. I DO understand that since it has been almost 10-15 years ago that I won't feel completely like that but to be close enough would be my goal.
I will wake up in the mornings not worrying what for clothing still fit me, and I will be able to put on an outfit and feel comfortable and look good in it. I will stop shopping in the Plus size departments and be able to afford cute clothing again. I will no longer make up excuses as to why I didn't or can't workout. After a few comments I've received from family and seeing myself in pictures and knowing that all my clothing in my closet I only fit into a select few items these past few months, I am determined that as of January 1st I am changing my life. There will be no more beer (until I reach my goal) I will allow myself an occasional glass of wine, but no more beer. I will eat healthy so I can set a perfect example for my children. I will get up and run/walk on the treadmill every morning and then try to squeeze the gym (for weights) in when I can. This is the only thing that will change me is me setting my mind to it. I can do this, and I will. I have been having trouble bending over without my big ole "Fupa" getting in the way and I'm sick of looking at it.
All I'm asking is for motivation from anyone, just a message or daily text or whatever to make sure I am on track and that I did workout and if I didn't then motivation to get me moving. I am limited on times to get to the gym due to children and work, but there is time so bare with me. I know I do better when I have people checking up on me because I do not want to disappoint so I want to look forward to the check up so I can message back "yep, I did it I ran and did weights and here is my meals for today" instead of dreading a message because I don't want to have to tell you that I was lazy and didn't do anything.
I am sick of all these aches and pains much of them associated with my weight, but some associated with prior injuries but can be managed if I was in shape and smaller. I have been snoring and I know it's related to my weight because I can feel the pressure of my fat roll up to my throat when I lay on my back.
Anyways, who's with me??? Don't be afraid, motivation from friends and family or even strangers is the key to success. Sometimes you just can't do things alone.
OK, that is all for now. Much has happened in the last month and a half but I will go over another time for I am limited on time right now.
I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and have a Happy New Year. I will check in on Friday, January 1st which is the start of my "New" 2016 the new me, the healthy and happy ) at least fitness ways) me!!!
Thank you and until next time....
