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Sorry I haven't been on to update in a long time but nothing really has changed even my weight. Two weeks this Tuesday I was holding my 17 month old & dancing with him & I injuried my back & could barely move. Quick story on my back I've had two surgeries on my lower back to fix herniated discs. Anyways, I went to the doctor & he put me on pain pills & muscle relaxers & a steroid (prednisone). The steroids were awful they made me bloated & constipated. So I was able to get around again but still had pain then on Sunday I hurt it again & was down for the count this time. I started physical therapy on Thursday which helped but I'm still having pain & have to watch my moves or I get a shooting pain in my back. My nights are sleepless & I wake up barely able to move b/c of the pain. During the day it's getting somewhat better. So to say the least I am depressed that I haven't been able to workout at all. I'm worried now that when I finally do get to its going to be hard to get myself back into the swing of things. Go figure just when things were getting good this happens, it never fails.

I've been trying to at least still watch what I eat so the weight doesn't come back on while I'm healing. I'm thinking on Monday I might get on the treadmill & do the JM walking workouts & start there & see how that goes & then slowly I can maybe get back to running sooner then later. I figured if I can at least do that it's better then nothing, right?

Anywho, I will try to keep my blog updated. I've just been on meds & in so much pain that I didn't feel like typing anything.

Until next time...............

This needs to stop!

Why do I always do this to myself! I have gained 3lbs over the weekend & I'm sure it's from the beer & junk I ate over the weekend cuz we had the twins birthday party & then yesterday we ate Denny's for breakfast & Mr. hero for lunch. I'm hoping its mostly water weight that I will sweat out after my workout today. I keep saying this all the time but I need to start following it but I really need to start doing better on the weekends if I want to loose these last 50 lbs before the end of the year. I need to start treating them like I do the week days & eating better & getting my workouts in if need be.

Anyways, I ordered four videos off of Amazon they are workout for arms, legs & abs, I will post more about them later, but I am planning on adding those to my workouts b/c it's time to start trying to firm after all this weight loss.

Well this was a short post but I will post more later (I promise). I will let you know how the videos went & post more about them.

Until next time.............

Crazy day!

Ok I really don't understand what my problem was today (if I wasn't fixed I'd say I was pregnant, lol). I was in a foul mood & didn't want to be bothered or touched by anyone yes even my kids. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed I guess. I can say I felt mad at the world b/c my house is a mess & there is nothing I can do about it & I get absolutely NO help with everything even the kids. Example since my knee has been hurting its really hard to give the trio a bath b/c of the bending of it & you'd think my husband would offer to help me out, but hell no they would never get cleaned if that was the deal. I cried a lot today b/c I've come to realize that I haven't spent anything on just me in the last few years & now that I'm losing all his weight I have absolutely no nice clothing to wear out if I wanted to go. I use to be embarrassed about going out b/c of my extreme weight but now I am b/c of my wardrobe. Yes, I want to go but new clothes but since I'm still losing weight & still have 50 lbs to go I don't want to waste money on clothes until I'm at my ideal weight. Then lets add that my asinine dog tore a hole in our couch that isn't even four months old whole I was running. I'm so sick of not being able to have anything nice. Well I'm going to stop bitching, but just had to say I was feeling a bit down on myself today.

Anyways the twins 3rd birthday was yesterday & so I had a piece of cake & ice cream but I did get my run in. Then today I wanted to skip but thankfully I did it & feel better that I did, plus I cleaned the fridge out cuz we're having a party for the twins on Saturday so I have tons of cleaning to do before then. I made cupcakes for their school tomorrow & of course I enjoyed one tonight after dinner.

Anyways gotta cut his short cuz criminal minds will be on in 8 mins. Sorry this post seemed all over the place but that's how I'm feeling today.

Until next time........

Alright I have to admit that since I got my IPad I have really bad about keeping up with my blog & in some sort of way I do feel bad.  I have still been running faithfully & I'm feeling pretty good.  My runs this past week have been really hard & I've struggled probably b/c I'm still fighting this chest cold.  My knee is still hurting but it has not bothered me while running/walking just when I bend it. 

So for some reason I have been feeling some sort of bloated the past few days & I already drink lots of water, but I've been trying to drink alittle more to try to get rid of it.  I was thinking maybe it was b/c of my monthly visitor but I'm towards the end so normally any bloat is gone by then.  We'll see how I am in a day or two & maybe I need to readjust my diet.  My clothes have been fitting pretty good, but I'm like in an in between size most of the clothes are falling off of me but the other half of my clothes (my pre-twin pregnancy) are a tad bit small but some fit.  I really have to start strength training now to try to tone up all this "loose" skin/flab that is now forming from all the weight I lost.  If I get this job next week then I'm going to see about getting a gym membership somewhere (I don't know how I'll fit it in w/ my trio & working full-time, but I will).  I need to get some video's b/c this extra skin is really causing me problems & self esteem issues.

Tomorrow is the twins 3rd birthday & I have lots to do tonight & then Saturday is there party so I have lots to prepare this week.  I will try hard to update more this week.  I didn't work out today b/c I've just been really tired & plus my son said he wanted me to lay in bed w/ him at nap time so I ended up falling to sleep & yes I do feel guilty about it.  But I will pick it up a step the rest of the week b/c as of right now I don't have any excuses.

Well my trio is screaming & calling me so I have to run.  Until next time......................