Better day!

I have to say today was a much better day at the gym for two reasons.. 1) I got to complete my entire workout including cardio & strength training & 2) the kids were better.  It always makes me feel better when I can workout.  The only problem was I thought working out was suppose to help relieve stress but in my case it doesn't because the whole time I'm working out I am always checking over my shoulder to see if they are coming to get me cuz of my kids.  

I changed up my breakfast & had Honey Nut cheerio's with flax seed sprinkled on top & my normal vitamins.  I again got really bad stomach cramps & nausea.  It went away by the time I got to the gym, but still WTH is going on?  I'm going to skip the flax seed tomorrow to see if maybe that my be causing this.  If the stomach problems still continue then I'm going to eliminate taking my vitamin C & see if maybe I'm getting to much of that.  If this doesn't help then I'm going to call the doctor.  

For lunch I had a turkey sandwich plain  & I baked some asparagus & no problems then.  I'm making dinner right now & we're having spaghetti noodles mixed with garlic butter & sausage.  But my stomach is playing tricks with me right now & it's not feeling 100%.  I have no idea what's going on.  

Well I better get back to the dinner preparations... Until next time.......

  

Today felt a little off!

Well today started as a Monday that was the first mistake there.  I couldn't get myself out of bed this morning even with the three munchions running around creating havoc in my bedroom.  I just couldn't open my eyes at 6:30 this morning. Then from what I can remember everything was going okay (my morning was a bit blurry).  I made my breakfast smoothie which consist of Silk Almond milk, banana, frozen berries, plain greek yogurt, spinach & flaxseed, only a few minutes later my stomach was cramping & I felt like I was about to puke.  I tried laying on the couch for a bit, but it didn't help.  I decided that I'll pack up the trio & head out to the gym & see how I felt when I got there.  I pulled into the parking lot & still feeling sick, but I decided I'll go in & see what happens.  I dropped the trio off at the play room & even told the girl that I don't know how long I'm going to make it cuz I wasn't feeling well , but low & behold as I stepped back out on the floor & started walking to the elliptical everything went away like a snap of the fingers.  So I got my 45 mins in & was going to fill up my water bottle before I started my leg strength training & I walk by the play room & the girl tells me "oh, I was just trying to call up front to get you....  Jake (my youngest 21 months old) was hitting & pushing kids & hit a little girl in the face with a chair"  Then she said 'Joey (my 3 year old) was knocking over kids blocks & such"  UGH, REALLY my kids are going to be the bullies?  I didn't know what to do.  I kept apologizing to the girl.  I had a talk with Jake, but at that age it's kinda hard to tell a toddler what he did wrong after the fact.  I was going to go back & finish my work out but then Joey started getting upset that he wanted to go home, so even though the girl kept telling me everything is okay & I can go finish working out, but I was so visibly upset after hearing what Jake has done, I had to go.  So I got the kids out & even before I got to my car I started crying.. by the time I got in my car I just let it go & balled my eyes out.

So basically the rest of my day has been bad.  I cannot get the situation above out of my head & I just keep getting upset about it.  I tried telling Jake over & over that hitting is bad so we'll see what happens tomorrow.  Please, please let them be good.  My worst fear is coming true I'm going to be that mom when other people see me they'll say "Oh no, here comes the bullies"

Another thing is I'm really exhausted & can barely keep my eyes open, so I'm going to end this here.  The best thing about my diet today is at least I got my cardio in the most important to me.  

Well, here's to hoping for a better day tomorrow & much more energy!!  Until next time..............

Being attacked by frustration

Ok, this Monday will make 6 weeks since I've been going to the gym working my butt off (or trying).  I've actually made it 5x a week, except for 4th of July week.  I'm still doing my original work out that I mentioned in my last post.  I feel great but I'm really not understanding the scale.  One day I was at 243.4 then come Monday I'm at 250 again.  Throughout the week I'll slowly get back down in the low 240's but then back up again.   I'm pretty sure I really need to readjust my weekend eating/drinking habits.  That is the only reason I can think of why this is happening.  I'm sure the stress I'm under isn't helping either.  

Secretly in a way I'm wanting Summer to be over with so we don't have to spend the weekends up at the trailer.  There is way to much drinking going on.  I know all I have to do is learn more self control & not drink.  I have been trying to bring up healthier foods for me to eat up there.  I need to start planning  ahead of the weekend so I'm not to the point of rushing to pack & then make horrible decisions.  Well lets hope that I can gain self control over the upcoming weekends & get under this 200lbs mark by the end of the year.  

I want to be sexy & feel great by next year & I hope with allot of self control & a being more strict on my habits then I can reach that goal.  

I can do this!!!!!

Well until next time.................. 

Missing in action!

Sorry I just realized that I haven't updated my blog in alittle over a month!  I've just been really busy with the kids & stuff.  Anyway's I joined a gym finally (Fitness 19) and I'm so happy that they have a kids play room so I can go the 5 times a week with out feeling bad about trying to find a babysitter.  Today was week 4 and so far I've been doing great with going everyday.  This week because of the Holiday will be cut short if we go up to the Lake on Wednesday night.  I will only get 3 maybe 4 days in this week.  

My routine is working out for me so far.  Every day I do 45 mins on the elliptical at level 4-5 with rotating forward & back every 10 mins & keeping not letting my speed go under 6.5.  Then on Monday, Wednesday & Fridays I do strength training on my legs.  Tuesday & Thursday I work out my arms.  Every day I do abs.  I am so happy to finally get strength training in again & I'm feeling really good lately.  My knee is still bothering me allot so I haven't been able to run on my treadmill at home, but once that is better I'm going to start adding my running back in for 30 mins at home.  

The weight finally started coming off again.  Last week I made it under 245lbs.  I was at 244.4, which I haven't lost anything for several months & it was really starting to bother me.  This morning the scale wasn't pretty but it's allot of bloating from drinking this weekend.  My summer weekends involve allot of beer because we spend them up at the Lake & I know that is horrible for my diet but it is so hard not to drink while sitting around the fire with all the people up there (while they are drinking too).  I have to work on that self control. 

I'm still job searching which sucks big time but then again I also like that I can get to the gym every morning.  I know that when I do get back to work it'll be hard to get to the gym after work with the kids cuz I'll feel guilty that I'll be picking them up from day care then eating dinner at home then taking them to the play room for about an hour & a half then come home & it'll be bed time.  We'll see how that works out. 

Well I am going to promise to try to keep this updated more & hopefully I'll have more weight loss updates too like I use to.  I will have to take an updated picture of me since it's been awhile. 

Until next time..................