Done!!

I am beyond pissed..... I did five days of running & four days of the Ripped in 30 (cuz I started Tuesday ) and I GAINED three fricken pounds!! OMG, I really don't know what to do & I'm about to throw in the towel & just except the fact that I'm doomed to be fat the rest of my life. I haven't lost anything since 1/29/13! WTH?!?! I am going to do my five days of Both workouts this week & again hope for the best & hoping that maybe it'll change once my monthly friend comes (any day now), cuz I usually put on a few right before then. If not I will scream, not like I don't scream enough with three little ones.

Anyways, I've been so depressed, pissed at the world & lost for words with my life right now.. I need CHaNGE & quickly. My kids have been so frustrating & nerve wrecking lately, maybe b/c we're all stir crazy being locked up inside & nothing to do. I really, really need a job. I cannot get past the damn interview part... Maybe I just am an idiot & I know I probably sound stupid in interviews but no one wants to hire me! WTH am I doing wrong, I mean seriously???? I'm a very hard worker & if people would get past the interview part & just let me show them then they wouldn't be disappointed. I am a fast learner & a great employee but no one wants me. I'm being to think I may need to apply at McDonalds or Walmart just so I can get out, but I probably wouldn't get those jobs either!!!

Oh we'll, enough complaining, but I needed to get that out cuz I have no one to talk to these days & keeping everything bottled up is getting to me!

Until next time.......

No pain, no gain!

Ok so I took 8 days off of working out & tried hard to still eat good. The reason I did this is because since 1/29/13 I have been stuck at the same weight. Yes it is good that I didn't gain, but I didn't loose either. I know my back injury put a big dent in my work out plans but I can't blame it on that & my back is doing much better that I don't have to go the PT (physical therapy) anymore. So I have to get myself motivated again & get moving to lose these last 50 lbs.

So I started running & walking again on Monday & I upped my running speed from 5.2 to 5.4 & it was rough but I got thru it. I also did my strength video by Denise Austin (my all time favorite cuz it works). Yesterday I did the treadmill but sadly I had to cut my run short b/c my running shoes (Asics ) have been a little tight since my pregnancy but I've sucked it up & ran through it, we'll yesterday I just couldn't take it (I had to curl my toes while running) so I went out yesterday & bought a new pair of running shoes & I cannot wait to run today & test them out. I also started the 30 day shred with Jullian Michaels yesterday & I'm going to hopefully stick to it & do it 5-6 days a week & hopefully see better results. Yesterday she kicked my butt cuz I'm so out of shape & it's been like five or so years since I've done such intense work outs & I'm hurting today but its that "good" hurt were you know it's working.

I'm also going to take some "disturbing" embarrassing photos of me today & then at day 30 to see the results. In the end I will post the before & after pics on here no matter how gross I look, hey I need inspiration, right?

Well it's time to go throw my workout cloths on & get to the 30 day shred & will do my treadmill & Denise Austin video later when the kids are sleeping.... Wish me luck.

Until next time...............

Ok, so I haven't stuck to my promise of keeping this updated. It's the time of year that I'm really busy. My back is doing much better & I have been able to start running again but I haven't done my five times a week cuz I'm slacking. I haven't ran since Thursday & I feel absolutely disgusting. I really need to get back on track & I hate that I let an injury take the best of me cuz I was doing so well. I haven't lost a pound in about a month & a half but thankfully I haven't gained either. I need to sit down & do a change to my diet again to get the weight loss moving again b/c I only have 50 lbs to go. The first 60 flew off cuz I was losing 2lbs a week but now I'm stuck, ugh. I'm going to do some researching & try new healthier foods & see if that helps me. Ive been so exhausted lately & also my nausea is back (vertigo) and that makes me not want to do a thing. So starting tomorrow I'm going to start running again & depending on what new healthier foods I choose I may start tomorrow or when I can get to a grocery store to stock up.

I will update with my changes ounce I figure it out. Thanks for listening.

Until next time cuz this momma is going to bed!