Spring is here

So I've noticed that my last post was just about a month ago.  I run into problems of having time to sit down and type.  I keep meaning to come on and update, but then I get caught up in my twins homework or just life itself.  We are about a month away from my life starting to go hire-wire and running everywhere with the trio.  The twins recital is 3rd weekend in May and then dance will be over till September, but then bring on T-ball and gymnastics and soccer which all start in mid April. Then weekends away at the camper start up end of next month.  I do not think I will be playing co-ed softball this season because none of my teams have said anything about having a team this year.  I know my Friday night team said probably not but I haven't heard from my Sunday night team, but I think the guy who organizes is is working on moving out of State so who knows, or maybe they are not asking me to come back cuz of my weight.  

Anyways, I have been doing good I had 3 weeks straight of gym time and going 4 to 5 days a week.  My cardio consists of the treadmill (I want to get myself back into running again) and I started the first 2 weeks with 5 mins walking at 3.5 and then 2 minutes running at 4.4 then 2 mins walking 3.5 and go back and forth on the 2 mins thing until I reach 40 mins then I walk the last 5 mins.  Unless it is just a cardio day then I go longer and do 60 mins.  In week 3 I have worked myself up to 5 min runs and 2 min walks.  This week (week 4) I have done absolutely horrible and I haven't been to the gym since last Wednesday (3/2) and I will honestly say I miss it and feel absolutely horrible about skipping and honestly I do not have any reasonable excuses of why I have besides laziness and the weather has been great.  I cannot go tonight or tomorrow because of Hip Hop and Chris's dart league and tomorrow there is ballet and the gym closed Friday's at 9 pm, but I am going to go on Saturday and Sunday and then get my butt back into training again.  I'm not going to let a week off ruin what I've accomplished in the last 3 weeks.  Summer is seriously right around the corner and it would be nice to be lighter and more comfortable with myself this Summer.  I also am doing weights while at the gym.  

I did finally force myself on the scale Tuesday and am surprised I am down 2 lbs from last week.  I only say this because I was a bottomless pit this weekend and couldn't stop eating everything and just never seemed satisfied.  

I am proud to say I have not had a beer since 12/31/15 and the reason I stopped drinking them is because I hate the bloated feeling and I've noticed that it was severally effecting my weight loss and I when I did drink I was drinking to much of it.  I have to admit that it is really nice waking up on the weekends with no hangovers.  I do though enjoy a glass of wine here and there.  Another positive note is my husband hasn't had a drink since the week of my birthday (end of January) after his horrible episode for a week straight.  I will just tell you sleeping pills and alcohol are addicting and can ruin lots of things (families especially).  November thru January are bad months for me and then the last week in January was truly something that I NEVER want to live thru again, it was hard and yes very scary and stressful, but I pulled thru as a MOM and took care of my children.  My work was effected and this year was the worst birthday I have ever, ever had in 41 years.  That week is something that I will never be able to forget and will never be able to get back, it has scarred me and my children.  Something he needs to work out to gain his daughters trust back after 3 months of hell.  Yes, I do live every day in fear that it will happen again.  I know I should go see someone to talk about it with, but it's hard.  OK, enough of that.  

That's about all folks and I will update again soon.......

Until then TRAIN hard!