Today was weigh in day with W.W. and I have to say I am a tad bit upset with their scale. It says I only lost .3 oz, but I have also been keeping track on my scale at home and my reason for this is because if I end up canceling my W.W. membership then I'd like to have an accurate number at home to go off of. It ends up that it is a good thing that I keep track because according to home this morning I am at 271.6 but according to W.W. I am 273.4. At home I've lost 5 lbs in 1.5 weeks, but according to W.W. I am down only 3.4 lbs in the 1.5 weeks. I am leaning more toward home scale and not only because it's a better number, but because it is a morning weigh in when I am in nothing but my birthday suit, plus at that time I haven't had anything to drink or eat yet. When it comes to W.W. I don't weigh in till 12:15 pm and by that time I have already drank at least if not more 120 oz of water and had breakfast. So maybe the scales are correct. That just proves the theory about gaining weight throughout the day.
Let me tell you a story from St. Paddy's Day! Before I left to drop the kids off at school and me to work, I prepared the corned beef and cabbage in the crock pot and set it to cook for 9.5 hours. I was looking forward to enjoying some when I got home. I was good all day and didn't cheat or anything and didn't even snack on anything all day except banana's & apples. We have a cafeteria at work and they made beef and cabbage for lunch and yes I stayed away and stuck to my protein drink. It was about 4:30 pm and I decided to call DH and see how it came out and tasted and he said it was very good. So I left work about 4:55 and was so excited to get home and enjoy it, it was almost to the point where I could literally taste it already. I wasn't even on the highway yet when DH calls me and says "We need to go out for dinner tonight." I say "why, what are you talking about, what in the hell happened?" His reply "Well one of the boys went in the microwave to get out their dinner plate (this is where he placed the beef till I got home) and they didn't shut the door so my oh so awesome Wiemeriner ate the whole damn thing." I was so upset that I just told him Goodbye and after hanging up the phone I cried. No one understands how bad I was anticipating it all day. It almost felt like when you truly want something so bad, but then the deal falls through and you're devastated.
He called me back saying he was going to pack the kids up and go to check out a couple local deli's to see if he can wrap up any corned beef. He and I both know very well that on a St. Paddy's day they will either be sold out or you'll be waiting in a 1-2 hour line. I told him just forget it and come home. He tried two places and yep, they had lines out the door with about 50 people in each. So then he asks if I want him to go to Arby's and get their deli corned beef sandwich and personally that was like a slap in the face... WTH, that is imitation and will not replace the homemade stuff I truly wanted. I again told him to head home and just forget it. He ended up going to Subway, because he had to get the kids something and asked if I wanted anything but by that time I had absolutely no appetite and told him, whatever. When I finally got home they were still gone (thankfully cuz I was pissed) and when I walk through the front door what is the first thing that hits me?!?!?! Yep, that awesome smell of corned beef cooking all day, but only problem is there was none. I ended up getting changed and then outside to finish tackling the never ending poop patrol in the back yard and I have to say I finished it before the sun went down and I was satisfied with myself and by that time all the anger I had before was gone. I ended eating what DH go me which was a chicken something nor other sandwich, which had no taste since I had other cravings.
As of yesterday I was finally over it and moved on. Monday we took that family and dogs on a 3 mile walk and stopped at Dairy Queen to get the kids cones (it was free cone day) and then headed home. Tuesday we didn't walk because I wanted to finish cleaning up all the dog poop and then yesterday we didn't walk because I didn't want to, but really I drank one of those teas I mentioned before (with laxative in it) on my way home from work and was afraid that while walking it would hit me fast & hard (which it didn't and I was mad we didn't walk). Yesterday I was very good with my diet but then I ruined it right before bed. I gave the kids baths and put them to bed and then was sitting on the couch watching TV when I kept thinking about the ice cream & girl scout cookies sitting in the freezer and the Cheese It's on top of the fridge, Finally after an hour and a half of talking myself down I gave in and enjoyed the ice cream and two small bags of Cheese It's. Yes, I was so mad at myself and still am. Then just about a half hour ago for absolutely no reason I reached for an almond candy bar and ate it and truthfully it wasn't very satisfying and I wanted to get sick after eating it cuz I was so disgusted with myself. Tonight we will take a quick family walk before DH has to go to darts. Then the kids will go to bed and I will enjoy a beer or two, I'm deserving of that at least.
Ok, I think I rambled on enough about the Corned beef and so forth and so forth. Here's to a tad bit better week and more will power this next up coming week.
Until next time..............................
Jennie
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